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Strange Times
This is day 39 on Quarantine.
This is 34 days straight of quarantine. In the first week I spent 2 days going to work.
I’m confident that I’ve experienced every single emotion I’ve ever felt including new ones in my entire life in this time that has lasted a little over a month.
This time has allowed me to be very intentional about the energy I let into my life, what I consume, what I make, and I’m learning that everything you let into your life is part of an amalgamation of the energy and the vibes we carry. I’ve been able to see my life from a bird’s eye view. I’m gaining control over painting my life. There were some health scares—my self and with my parents. Everyone is okay!! phew. But I think I had the first panic attack of my life this past month.
What have I watched?
MOVIES:
Soap Dish
American Graffiti
Pride and Prejudice
Blow the Man Down
Zootopoia
Snowpiercer
Parasite
The Muppet Movie
Return to Oz
Red Riding Hood
Julie/Julia
Love
Portrait of a Lady on Fire
TV SHOWS:
Schitt’s Creek
Ozark (Season 3 holy shitttttt)
Twin Peaks
Servant
The Morning Show
Six Feet Under
Mad Men
The Adventures of Harley Quinn
Sex & The City
News:
Anderson Cooper
Andrew Cuomo
CNN
Live Twin Peaks reunion on Instagram Live
Documentaries:
Cooked with Michael Pollan
Salt, Fat, Acid, Heat with Samir Nosrat
Tiger King (Wish I hadn’t tho)
Podcasts:
Cinema Therapy :)
We have recorded and put out 2 episodes so far on quarantine.
I have ordered equipment for recording to start working and producing from home.
Music:
My playlist on Spotify is called “Strange Times”. It’s a collection of songs that either help me get through it, are new to me, or how I’m feeling.
What am I reading:
Women Who Run with the Wolves by: Dr. Clarissa Pinkola Estes
City of Girls by: Elizabeth Gilbert
What am I making:
It wasn’t until COV-19 that I really made effort in the kitchen.
Cocktails:
Rum infused Dole Whip cocktail- real ones/Disney Kids will know : Rum used was Wray and & Newphew White Rum
Whiskey Sour made with Jameson
Whiskey Ginger made with Jameson
Margarita made with Mi Campo Tequila
Dalgona Cocktail made with Cafe Bustelo cafe and Jameson Whiskey
Wines I’m trying:
Cote Mas Rosé Aurore (rose)
Prophecy (Pinot Noir)
Meals: Highlights :)
How am I spending my time? :
I write poetry (prompts are influenbed by 10*10*10 with Dan Johnson at Poet’s House, 30 for 30 Decolonization facilitated by JL Umipig)
watching tarot/horoscope videos on youtube
singing- I’m adamant about conditioning my body and voice to be ready to go whenever. I’m learning to treat my skills like muscles that need constant training,care, and exercising.
Once every two weeks I have a zoom writing meet up to work on a musical
zoom calls with so many different social circles. Enjoying genuine conversations with friends, family, and creatives.
sun bathing on my roof
getting pretty, dressing up, taking photos of myself
Cooking. My time alone in the kitchen has become so sacred to me. I feel so free to experiment, get messy, and not have anyone judging me. I’m learning my identity in the kitchen and creator in that space.
online/phone calls with my jobs, unemployment (grrrrrrr), looking up virtual auditions, budgeting, handling bills. WE ARE UNDER QUARANTINE BUT I’M STILL TAKING CARE OF MY FINANCES THROUGH 3 DIFFERENT JOBS/CAREER AVENUES.
Working out with virtual help- 305 Fitness videos, pop sugar workout videos, Dance Marshall Dance Videos
I go to the Grocery Store about once a week and spend about $85 on groceries for the week. I also tip my clerks and those assisting me, thankful for them risking their health to work so I can have feed myself.
Social Media for podcast @cinematherapyshow, @weepy_eyes_productions, @cinephilesclub, and my personal account @kjpangantihon
Learning how I can take care of my career as artist during these times of limitations.
Making difficult decisions everyday about whether or not I should I work, navigating how I can support myself when I have yet to receive financial aid from the government. Funny how they have no problem finding me when they’re garnishing my wages, but all of a sudden they can’t find me when I’m owed money.
reading my tarot cards in the morning
getting angry with systems in place and capitalist structures that don’t give a shit about my well being
getting in touch with old friends and new friends
house party and all the games I enjoy with my friends
taking shots virtually with my mess hall Crew
talking to Delvonte daily
sessions with my therapist every Monday
updating my website
organizing my email
working on my play “That Which I am Seeking” being going virtual for the "Sip n Play” festival (details soon)
Learning how to not let relationships control my mental strength
speaking up for myself (at work, home, relationships) and asserting my truth . I guess it’s also learning self love and self respect.
in my early 30’s so hating and lovng TikTok at the same time.
making cocktail videos
making singing videos
posting weird shit and working on my editing skills
getting in touch with my instagram model behavior
investing in a selfie light/tripod and sound equipment
Memories:
Watching the Disney sing along TWICE- with friends both times. Singing along to Ariana’s “I Won’t Say I’m in Love”
Cinephiles Club watching the newest season of “The adventures of Harley Quinn”
2 high school cuda chorus parties using “house pary” in one month. It amazes me that my circle of friends from high school chorus are still like family to me. I love how at ease and rejuvenating they are to me.
Netflix Party with Cuda Chorus followed by a Virtual Music Festival
all the factimes with my family in the Philippines, Miami, Georgia, and Maryland.
Happy hour on my roof with Tatiana
Happy hours with Tatiana and Tonilyn
I ordered McDonalds twice, Chipotle once, and Popeyes once. I think it’s worth mentioning that we should all look at the services we are using to have things delivered. Some companies are charging significantly more than they usually do without sharing to the restaurant.business or worker delivering. Tipping is more important than ever.
Alvin Ailey Vogue Class with Hapa and Kevin
I’m very grateful to have a received that a grant from the United States’ Bartender’s Guild.
Mess Hall instagram takeover
watching opera from the Met online
Virtual Vocal warm up with voicebox
full Moon in Libra virtual watch party with Moon Omens
talking about weed being good sex for "Women who Smoke”
virtual 420 party
rainy monday in bed relaxing
Rules/Boundaries:
Clean Bed Sheets- washing bed sheets about every 10 days
Making my bed in the morning
not looking at my phone for at least 2 hours every day
2 loads of laundry ( luckily I have a washer/dryer unit in my apartment) at least 1 a week
Being mindful of all the energy allow into my life
Happiness:
Steamer/humidfier on
Candles burning
Clean sheets
cleaning my room
alone time on my roof
watching a movie/tv show without distractions
aesthetic therapy with Pinterest- it’s a Libra’s Best Friend
praying
meditations
daydreaming
phone sex
masturbating
the poetry written, the singing videos, the piano playing, the creative projects are all very self affirming
Anyway, that’s all for now. Sending Love. This blog took about 2 hours. wow.
xoxo
Karen Joy Pangantihon